Last night was one of the hardest yet. Hard to imagine but it is true.
After waking up – looking with those eyes, 3/4 open, listening to Alex, spitting up gunk and mid day long fever – the fever shot up like a rocket. Went to 40+. Todd’s sweet, fighting body couldn’t take it. He was put on a big dose of sedative and back into deep sleep he went .. and with more antibiotics.
The sedative was stopped with in the last hour (10ish) and just a moment ago he coughed and spit and opened his eyes a bit. A little bit. His fever is still high. 39.something. During the night it went down to 37 and is now slowly rising … again. The Dr.s are working hard to determine where/why the fever is.
Your cooling thoughts are helping. He is in a peaceful place with Alex right now.
We are encouraging him to take his time. There is no rush.
peacelovetodd
October 1, 2007 at 6:27 am
Hang in there guys….
We’re with you…
Sending cooling thoughts….
ox
Caprice, Colin and Family
October 1, 2007 at 6:59 am
sending love, healing prayers and strength your way!
many artists who we work with have heard about todd’s accident, and though they might not know him (and/or you), please know that there are alot of folks out there pulling for todd and his loved ones.
this is our meditation/visualization for todd
we are getting inside the cells, each cell is becoming more aware of its neighboring cells, and awareness is increasing.
we are passing the breath from one cell to the other, increasing oxygenation.
and then visually encircling whatever viral or other agent is present; the white blood cells surround those cells, and do their perfect job to bring todd’s body back in to balance and fullness.
much love.
October 1, 2007 at 7:07 am
todd and alex, i’m saying little prayers all day that the fever breaks. i believe you will come around, todd, you’re a good man with such tender eyes…and alex i wish i were there to say something to make you laugh, i promise i wouldn’t steal your wallet. darin
October 1, 2007 at 7:15 am
Todd, last night after checking the blog I walked home from my studio. It was twilight, the sun had fully set, but a last streak of azure blue sky was sandwiched between two thick blankets of indigo clouds. The brilliant blue streak was smudged with a burnt orange, the trees were inky silhouettes. I walked until I found one and climbed as I as it would let me. I sat there until that strip of blue disappeared into the folds of night and chanted a Tibetan prayer for you.
October 1, 2007 at 8:48 am
Hello, Alex and Todd and team,
Robin here–I am sure Don meant to send more empathetic thoughts but he had to leave early in order to meet this eve after his day job with John Rogers and others of Todd’s cover group at CCA. Alex, if you send me your address I will send you my best acupressure guide (jin shin jyutsu) so that you can “lay on hands” in this very gentle and health-enhancing way.
I also underwent and witnessed some of the things you see with Todd so will try to send more of everything good I can your way. Pain, fever, and certain motion are the negatives we all hope the great medical staff can keep at bay right now. Will add what I can on the astral. Be strong.
We love you,
Robin
October 1, 2007 at 9:12 am
Hey there, Mary and John here. We are heading to breakfast (suprise, we’re hungry), and then out on the cool cool water for a paddle. We’ll splash a little extra to churn up some cool thoughts for Todd, and sing some Sea Chanties
Hey Ho, Cool the Guy Down….
Watch out for that parrot…
Maybe we’ll tow yours along just to keep the flow going. Sweet thoughts out to both of you, strength and patience.
Love and hugs and wet pant legs
M and J
October 1, 2007 at 10:08 am
Dear Todd,
Have you ever felt cold Sierra granite? Cool from the shade, and cool from the moon, and cool from the turning seasons. If you hang on the side of the rock, your fingers turn cool (OK, cold) too. The aspens in the Sierra are turning yellow and the air is crisp. Cooling seasonal prayers for you.
Dear Alex,
You are my hero.
October 1, 2007 at 12:00 pm
As I sit and read each and every word, I can’t help but feel this overwelming amount of love that has been expressed on this site, for our Todd. Having only met Todd, one time, with his sister, Julie and her boys (in CA, a few years back), remembering the positive and immediate impression that he made for me, right from the start. Alex and Todd, as one, are clearly a match made in Heaven. There joint smile, connection, and mere brightness and positive love, gives hope to each and every one of us.
This site has been filled with encouragement, hands held across the seas, prayers that have reached the heavens. I am truly blessed to have just shared in this outpouring of concern and beautiful words that have been received in the care closets to Todd.
A lesson learned, love those close to you, love those far from you, love them no matter, and forever let them know. You can never say, “I love you” too many times. You can never care “too much”. Its amazing to me that having only met Alex and Todd once, in my life, the impact that their love and dedication have shown onto me and my life.
With the grace of God, may the Heavens shine upon you in these times. May you embrace one another in the wee hours of the evening. May you laugh and cry together, bringing you that much closer. May you feel the support and kindness pouring onto your souls. May you know that you are not alone in this gentle fight. For God has prevailed and will continue to prosper onto our Todd and those that love him, which, honestly, includes us all.
May Todd’s bright smile shine on us again.
Positive thoughts and energy are my new goals in life. Thank you to all of you who have written and shared your thoughts. Little do you know how far those words go.
All my strength to you and yours,
Sherry Riddle
October 1, 2007 at 12:09 pm
One more thing: As my friend came into the room, I said, “Just look at his smile!” She smiled in return. Then, I went onto say, “He smiles like this in each and every picture! I have like 10 great pictures out there of me, with my best smile! Todd smiles like that in EVERY picture and even BIGGER when he’s standing with Alex (more like admiration for one another).” Again, another wonderful thing that Todd has shared with us: Smile your best smile, each and every time! Keep going Todd! What else can you share with us?
October 1, 2007 at 12:50 pm
Hey Todd,
I have been going to ocean beach for the past five days to blow cool air your way. Be strong man. There are so many friends/students/instructors who I have spoken with who await your return. I have much gratitude for the help you have generously given me; now I wish I could be there to support you… Speaking (If I may) for many at CCA, we love you, love your generous heart, and are with you. My feet are so cold, I push them deeper in the sand -ocean beach sand socks. Cool down.
Kindest regards to all who sit with Todd, thanks for remaining so strong!!
October 2, 2007 at 7:45 am
good article story . Thank
October 2, 2007 at 9:58 am
I’ve been humming all the tunes to me and Brian’s favorite band: Freezepop!! Chillin with ya 24/7.
xoxA&B
October 2, 2007 at 11:29 am
Alex and family,
Hello this is Kaotika. We may have met at Robodock, I was working with robochrist and helped srl a lil´ bit.
Anyways, A good friend of mine who is dutch lives in Amsterdam Nord and is a physiotherapist and his partner is a nurse. He has offered to help you out how he can. Maybe a massage for you or call him if you have questions or want to make a new friend to go on a bike ride when things get smoother.
His name is Mark Boetes his email is boetmark@gmail.com
his cell is 06 422 15749
Mark was at the show and sent an email asking about todd after seeing the newspaper article of the accident.
My thoughts are with Todd and all of you. I hope this connection may help you. Take care of yourself.
Eveline aka Kaotika